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To My Mountain Movers,
For those who almost lost their faith or currently have close to none: believe it or not, me too. I want to talk to you about Mustard Seed Faith. I want to talk about what it looks like to literally only have faith the size of a mustard seed. In 2017, I went from experiencing the most faith I have ever walked in, to later experiencing my faith dwindle to almost nothing. And if I am going to be 100% transparent with you, it was solely based on circumstances that were changing around me. For someone who has spent the last two years dedicated to speaking faith into the lives around me and encouraging people to have faith in what they can’t see and what they do not understand because God remains the same no matter what the circumstance-I felt like a complete hypocrite. I felt shame, I felt defeated and I felt angry. I’m not going to go into detail about the circumstances changing around me because we might not have all gone through the same situation, but I KNOW that there are some of you who have gone through or are currently going through the same emotions and experiences of disappointment, betrayal and humiliation due to those circumstances. Through it all, I have found that satan is constantly fighting to make us believe that our God is not good. That our God won’t always fight our battles. That our God won’t always bring justice. These were the lies I began to believe. I allowed my disappointment and pain to drown out the truth I have stood on for so long because the pain was so deep. I walked conflicted every day because I had seen God do so much in my life and in the lives of those around me and I had seen God remain faithful so many times but my heart cry remained the same, “Why aren’t you doing it now?!” I knew that if I didn’t believe God would be there for me this time, then I would be nullifying all the other times He had been faithful. I knew that if I completely lost hope in Him, then I never truly believed in the first place. That was my mustard seed. Once I had that revelation, I may not have went right back to being that “faith-filled” woman that I have always considered myself to be, but I chose to not lose hope. Every day it was a choice. Every day I fought the lies, I fought my natural sight of what my circumstances looked like and I fought my flesh that wanted to give up. And our God, who IS a good and faithful God, told me that that was enough-that was all He needed. He reminded me something that I have declared many times, it’s not about the size of my faith, but rather my ability to put my faith in God.
I know you’re hurting right now. I know you’re angry and you feel like God is not protecting you when you’ve been faithful and staying humble and turning the other cheek. I’m here to tell you today, that God IS fighting your battles and he IS working things out in the spirit and in the natural because THAT IS WHO GOD IS. He says that He remains faithful even when we are faithless because He cannot deny Himself! As I was recently challenged, I want to challenge you. What if you looked at every loss and disappointment in your life as a seed? Seeds of faith in the promise that everything the enemy tried to steal from you would be returned AND MULTIPLIED! And just like a seed as it begins to grow, we can’t always see the beginning process. We can’t see the roots forming and taking hold. Allow your faith to be the nutrients in the soil and your trust to be the water that nourishes your seed. Speak the Word of God over that seed (the loss, the disappointment, the fear, the humiliation) and watch what our faithful God will transform it into-for your good and for His glory.
Now go move that mountain,
-That Girl Faith